Life Is Full Of Challenges

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Life Is Full Of Challenges

07 March 2009

Posted by countrydi

It seems like life is always holding hard challenges for me. It seems I take one step forward and then get knocked two steps back. Life has really been challenging since my divorce a few years ago. I finally, after 26 years, got out of an abusive marriage. But the road sure hasn't been easy. Sometimes it seems impossible, but I always have a friend who will grasp my hand and pull me along. I am thankful for that. I have a wonderful mentor who has helped me grow alot in the past 2 years and that is a blessing. I think my journey wouldn't be so hard if I didn't have so many health and weight problems to cope with and work through. I was in the hospital for a week last month and have been on rest (as much as I can handle just resting) since then. I am hoping to return to work next week. I will see the doctor on Monday again. Fear holds me back on really living life and trying new experiences. Being told I was stupid and dumb all my life is a issue I work on daily to overcome and I will. So FEAR, even though it's such a little word, is HUGE in my life. Even something as simple as trying to make a digital scrapbook page (something I have never done) was fearful. I have done many regular scrapbook albums through the years but wanted so bad to move towards digital. I have been buying supplies here for a full year now and had not even done a single page. I have bought 3 sets of Ro's learning videos, my wonderful son bought me PSE 7 for Christmas. I had always used PSP and loved it. Now I am learning something new all over again, and not doing too bad with the help of Ro's videos. But yet fear was still holding me back. Yesterday I was looking around in the university and found a couple of videos on making a page using a "Easy Page" and I thought....I might be able to do that. But I still held back for the entire day. I finally ate the frog (it's a book on stopping procrastinating I'm reading). Late last night. early morning, this morning I FINALLY did a page using a simple easy page. It is nothing compared to all the beautiful pages I see on here. I have a very LONG way to go before I am even close to the pages displayed on Scrap girls. But at least I got one done. I just have to figure out where to put it to show it here. :2468who-do-we-appreciate: