Darkness
Journaling reads:
This is what happens when depression hits! Nothing matters to me anymore and life just slipps away. I sit around and do nothing at all. I involve myself with pointless and meaningless tasks. I try to push things out of my mind so I don’t think about them. When I finally do wake up I look around me and depression hits again. How can I let it get this bad? Honestly a messy house drives me bonkers. This time I decided I’d take pictures, document it that way when the darkness slipps in again I can look back before it gets too dark..It hurts to even look at these pictures. To look at the reality that once was and will come time and time again but I vow that I will never, NEVER, let it get this bad again. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change ,courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference. I know the depression will never be fully gone but I can change how it affects my life!
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on a personal note this was very hard to post. I've been fighting with this all month.
Not only am I showing the 'world' what happens to me when I get into my 'ruts' as I call them but it was very hard to scrap and fight that demon. I don't think anyone wants to admit what happens to them. Its a dark part of life you want to keep secret and not let anyone see. Every now and then I look at those pictures and vow to not let it get like that again. (looking around house... I think it's time to clean)
Thanks for looking:)
Oh.. the butterfly in the flowers symbolizes the hope that I have that one day the light will come and the darkness will go away!
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