Short-timer Ambivalence How can I STILL not be ready for this baby?
Posted 27 February 2008 - 04:34 PM
At any rate, after months and months of ambivalence and anxiety about this impending birth, I find that I am still struggling somewhat with the idea of expanding our family from a cozy 3 to a never expected 4. I alternate between excitement and hope that things will be different with this baby (how can they not be with all that I've learned from Zach), but then the huge anxieties set in--I'm 38, we didn't do an amnio, so I'm a little concerned about potential health issues for baby, I'm not ready for the sleepless nites again (who am I kidding? At this point I'm so huge I don't sleep at nite anyway), I worry about having to deal with a colicky baby and the post partum depression that I suffered last time (I was suicidal for the first time in my life--scary)....
I guess I just thought that by this time in the pregnancy I would feel more ready for the baby's arrival than I do.
Anyway, thanks for reading.
Posted 27 February 2008 - 04:48 PM
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference. reinhold niebuhr
Posted 27 February 2008 - 04:56 PM
Melissa My Gallery
"The man who is swimming against the stream knows the strength of it." Woodrow T. Wilson
Posted 27 February 2008 - 04:57 PM
I hope that things go smoothly for you!
Posted 27 February 2008 - 05:30 PM
Posted 27 February 2008 - 05:40 PM
One last thing ... when I found out my second (who was planned) was a boy I was so upset! I really really wanted another girl. What in the world do I know about raising boys? Besides, all the boys in my family are pigs ... I don't want to make another one! LOL! The entire time I was pregnant after I found out I was completely dreading having a boy (and really scared of the "fountain of youth" LOL) but the very second he was born we had a special bond. He is a total Mama's boy where dd is a Daddy's Girl through and through. I guess my point is that you'll find that you'll love this baby every bit as much as the first and you won't believe how easy it is to let yourself fall completely in love again. There will be adjustments with the second but you'll find it comes easier with experience.
Please let us know how you are doing when you get a chance. And we would all love to see pictures when you can get them up.
Posted 27 February 2008 - 08:27 PM
Posted 27 February 2008 - 08:31 PM
You have a couple weeks yet. Everyone deals with an impending birth differently. You will be fine. As soon as you see that little one your doubts will melt away. Every child is completely different, so don't let the way your son is predict what this baby will be like. My two who are 18 months apart are completely different children. You look at them and tell right off they are brother and sister, but personalities are night and day. Even in middle and high school they had some of the same teachers and the teachers never made the connection they were related even though they look a like and they have the same last name! It was not until my hubby and I would show up for Parent Teacher conferences and they would realize, oh they are related! LOL So don't panic hon. It will be fine:-)
Posted 27 February 2008 - 08:39 PM
I too am concerned about my age and potential health risks for the baby. I think that is normal. I keep telling myself that even though the odds for problems are higher than when we were younger, the odds are still in our favor. Don't stress too much.
I think you will find this go round a lot easier. You aren't a newbie mom anymore so all those things you used to worry about will be non-issues this time.
Just keep venting away. Just think- in a few weeks you won't be pregnant anymore!! That right there is something to rejoice about!
Posted 27 February 2008 - 08:57 PM
Every pregnancy is different, and I would guess that every post-partum is different. At least now you are armed with knowledge from the first time in knowing what to watch for and hopefully your health care provider can counsel you ahead of time...
In a few weeks you will have a wonderful new bundle of joy- and not too long after that you should be getting some sleep
Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing!!!
Posted 27 February 2008 - 11:18 PM
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Posted 28 February 2008 - 12:20 AM
I just need to keep remembering to BREATHE and tell myself that it will be fine....after all, I have Scrap Girls on my side.
Thanks again, everyone.
Posted 03 March 2008 - 12:19 PM