Had A Rough Day Yesterday
Posted 25 February 2009 - 01:43 PM
Then in November, I had a mole removed. Results were fine. It came back, and I had it removed again on Friday. Still waiting to hear those results, and it's on my mind.
Monday night, I got an emailed prayer request about a Matt that was injured in Iraq. Wondered if this was the same one that DH worked with and deployed with (though they aren't in the same group).
Yesterday, went to the dentist to get 6 teeth fixed. Just shallow fillings to prevent further damage. Had a hard time with the needle, and actually shook for the first type of injection. He gave me something different for the second side, and I didn't shake. Survived 1 1/2 hours of having my mouth open for work to be done. Then I took the girls to WalMart to shop some. This is the same WalMart that my hero works at. Found out the injured soldier is the one who worked with my husband. And a couple of people wanted to know how Dave is doing. I could only answer that I haven't gotten a call or knock on the door yet, so I guess fine.
This just hit too close to home and really shook me up last night. Then I felt selfish for being scared for my own husband when another family is facing their own tragedy. I went out to dinner with some friends and that helped. My little angels didn't seem to realize that Mommy was upset yesterday. They are doing great.
Did get an email update that the injured soldier is going to be ok. If I read it right, he is going home to recover.
Posted 25 February 2009 - 01:51 PM
I will say that you should not feel selfish at all. You can still sympathize/empathize with others while being fearful yourself. It's natural so don't put more worry on yourself by feeling selfish. You are certainly allowed, in my humble opinion.
I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this practically alone. I am glad that you have help and support but I'm sure it's still difficult and very lonely at times. I wish I were closer and could give you a big hug in person. Since I can't I'll send you great big cyber hugs instead.
Posted 25 February 2009 - 02:00 PM
Posted 25 February 2009 - 02:13 PM
Know that we are all sending you virtual hugs and good thoughts.
Obviously you are doing better than you think if your girls aren't sensing a problem.
I think you are having a perfectly healthy reaction to a scary situation.
We forget in times of cell phones and instant messaging that sometimes communication can take a while.
My aunt still talks about not hearing from my uncle for 4 months during WWII while he was in combat.
Fortunately, that is a thing of the past.
This is probably a good time to stay busy doing what you enjoy - like making layouts!
Seriously, I'm sure your husband would love an album of what his dear family was doing while he was gone.
It would be great memories for the girls too.
Maybe they can help you build some pages from their point of view.
Please keep us posted on how you are doing.
Posted 25 February 2009 - 02:25 PM
A true friend reaches for your hand and touches your heart. ~Author Unknown
Posted 25 February 2009 - 08:20 PM
I've been working on doing layouts for my girls' albums. I do one for each year for them. I've also done a "my hero" album (only 10 pages) for my husband. I had that printed as a little bound book at WalMart and sent it to him.
I send him updates about what the girls are doing, pictures, and will even be doing some video. He has a laptop there, so I can make PDFs of my scrapbooks and send those to him also. The girls love making postcards, cards, and pictures to send to him.
Posted 25 February 2009 - 09:37 PM
I get the touch of the blues with my DH working out of town during the week. But, I know I'll get to see him on the weekends.
Not so in your case.
I'll be thinking and praying for you and your family.
Posted 25 February 2009 - 09:45 PM
Hang in there & we're here for you.
Posted 25 February 2009 - 11:28 PM
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Posted 26 February 2009 - 12:09 PM
And a sincere Thank you to your husband and all
those serving in our military.
Posted 26 February 2009 - 12:17 PM
You all will be in my thoughts and prayers... a daily update to someone, anyone will help you get through this difficult time. I wish I was there to just give you a hug!
Posted 26 February 2009 - 12:28 PM
Posted 26 February 2009 - 12:57 PM
Then I get an email from my FRG leader about a fallen soldier connected to the same Stryker Brigade as my husband.
I haven't had cable in almost 10 years and never had satellite. I don't get the newspaper. I don't turn on the radio. And I don't look for military news on the internet. I seriously keep myself in a happy little bubble so I'm not spending all day, every day worried that something is happening. Dave even instructed me to not look for the news about Iraq, and told several people not to tell me anything so I don't worry. (Get the feeling he is concerned about me? )
So what am I supposed to do when I get things in my email? And not from just anyone, but my church and the family readiness group with the army. Not one email, but four, and just from Monday to today.
Thanks everyone for listening, praying, thinking, and letting me vent this. It truly helps to know that people care. I know I can get through this. I'm confident that WE will get through this, and he will be home in my arms again. We've been through a deployment. We've been through 9/11 with him in Germany for Army training. (Just landed shortly before the world changed, and I didn't get to hear from him for days.) It's just that this kind of news shakes me up a bit.
I'm off to take the girls to the store and go to an appointment. I think I'll be scrapping a ton this evening after doing the house blessing!
Posted 27 February 2009 - 10:27 AM
Please know that there is a large military family here inside SG (I didn't realize how large!) and that we are here for you. Scrapping is theraputic, and has gotten me through some rough patches, so keep that up!
Posted 27 February 2009 - 03:40 PM
Posted 27 February 2009 - 10:20 PM
The emotions I posted are real. This is what is happening right now. I'm truly glad that they helped to give insight into what others are facing and how to pray for them.
And ladies, the prayers for knowing peace are working! I was cuddling my baby this morning. Just laying there cuddling her, and I felt such a surge of peace wash over me. A moment where everything in the world was right, everything was good, and I was enjoying just what I needed to be doing at that very moment. It was great, and will help to carry me through.