[countrydi]

I'm so sorry I haven't been on the boards. I have been drowning in depression and on doctor ordered bed rest. I have never felt so alone in all my life. And I didn't feel right about not being on the boards and then coming on and asking for prayers but I need the power of the purple prayers. So I hope you can forgive me for not being around. I have been in severe pain for 2 weeks before I left WI to come back to PA. I thought it was an injection procedure they did in their pain center in WI. The pain is so great it limits me on doing much of anything at all. Especially sleeping. It been 3 months now. When I was finally able to get back into the pain center I went to before I left PA, they started running tests right away. They put me on a good bit of bed rest. For every 2 hours up, I had to be in bed 1 hour. Plus they put me on some pretty strong drugs that made me loopy at times.The pain kept getting worse so it was more drugs, more bed rest etc. One of the tests was an MRI with and without contrast so they could really get a good idea what was going on. I got the results 1 1/2 weeks ago and they completely knocked me off my feet. I couldn't even drive right away, I was crying too much, I just sat there in the car and cried. See before I left for WI, they had told me the more weight I lose, like every 10 pounds I lose, it's gonna help my back ALOT. Well according to their scales (and mine too) I have lost 40 pounds since I went to WI and came back SO that means it should have helped my back alot.....NOT SO.....the results of the MRI blew me away. My Degenerative Disc Disease is a good bit worse, there is moderate multilevel Spondylosis, I have Spinal Stenosis,at L2-3, L3-4, L4-5 which is getting worse, I have pinched nerves at L5 and the worst is I have 3 herniated discs (which I already knew about), well one of them on the right side has ruptured and has pinched off 3 major nerves, which causes severe pain into my right hip and down my leg all the way to my ankle and doesn't let up. I have to use a cane or walker again. One of the other herniated discs is bulging and may also rupture. So I have to be extra careful. So the doctor has started me on more meds and lots of bed rest plus he is going to start a series of injections into my back and if this doesn't work, then he will do laproscopic (spelling?) surgery to remove the pieces of ruptured disc that are pinching off the nerves. Hopefully before permanent damage is done. Now I know I have alot of friends online who care and I so appreciate that. But while going through this I'm learning that I have no one around me to lean on, who cares. I knew the son I had conflicts with wouldn't be a help but I found out from the other kids that I better follow the doctors orders because if not....".there is no one who is gonna take care of you" (their words). That broke my heart. I NEVER expected it from the other kids, never. And I don't have any other family around me either. So I have never felt so alone in my entire life.....and I'm really really scared. So if you have time, could you say a prayer for me, I sure could use it. Thank you alot. God bless you!

[Sherry Lynn]

Di I am so sorry that you are in so much pain (in more ways than one) --- I'm adding you to my thoughts AND prayers!

[mbc72]

Di, such heartbreaking news both from your dr as well as your family. I will keep you in my prayers.

[teecee]

I'm so sorry to hear you are having so much pain and difficulty Di. You know I'll be keeping you in my prayers. Hugs!

[kimmybutton]

I'm sorry you are having to deal with all the physical problems as well as the relational ones. Prayers and very gentle (hugs).

[KatieGrace]

So sorry to hear this. I've had some back problems and they can be excrutiating. I can't imagine what you are going through with all of that and then family problems as well. I said prayer for you and will keep you in my thoughts.

[SodScrap]

Woo hoo-you've lost 40 pounds, that's great!! The other stuff...well...boo! I will keep you in my prayers Di!

[April Showers]

Thinking of you Di! Sorry to hear you're in so much pain.

[A-M]

Dear Di, I am sad to read of all the trials, both physical and emotional that you are going through.
I am now lifting you to the Lord in prayer.

[AggieB]

So sorry to hear of all your troubles. The back pain sounds ferocious, you don't need the mental pain on top of it. Adding my prayer.

[KFiasco]

I'm so sorry. I will be sure to pray for you every day. I hope you start feeling better soon.

Karen

[Becster]

Praying so hard for you Di! My husband had several disks blow out back in '89 (he sneezed in his sleep) and when they went in and removed the pieces it gave him SO much relief! I'm praying that you will have the same outcome.

[Sara Arell]

Praying very hard for you sweet Di - I hate that your difficulties are not resolving themselves but know that my thoughts and prayers are with you always and I'm here for you if you ever need to just talk. You have my phone number and you know you can cal me anytime.

Love you sweetie!
Hugs
Sara

[Jenna]

Oh Di, my heart breaks for you! I will add my prayers. Hang in there, God will not give you more than you can handle!

[B&K Mom]

Sorry things are so difficult for you right now. Praying right now for you.

[Smiles]

Bless your heart, Di! I'm so glad they have finally figured out what's really going on. May angels of strength and healing carry you gently through this challenge, and may angels of wisdom and healing guide all your doctors and care providers. You are not alone! (and way to go on the 40 pounds!)
delicate hugs,

[KayMitch]

Thinking of you Di and hoping everything improves soon. So sorry you are in so much pain, mentally and physically. Hugs Kay

[Belle]

Di, I am so sorry that you are suffering like this. Just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. I just pray that things will start improving now that the Docs have found out what to do. Hugs.

[ValerieT]

Oh Di, I'm so sorry for you. I hope the doctors can help you and that you get some pain free time. I'll keep you in my thoughts.

[Sara Arell]

Thinking of you this morning, sweet Di!!! My heart goes out to you, sweetie - sending hugs and am keeping you close in thought and in prayer that life takes a turn for you.

[princessrunningfingers]

Di, I am so sorry that you are having such difficulties. I pray that your Dr's will be able to help you, and that you receive the support of your family. I know how I depend on my kids for support, especially the emotional support.

[tinkerbell11]

Di , keep you head up and never be afraid to ask for help here we will lift you with our Purple Powers! Hugs!

[LaLo1103]

Sending hugs and prayers your way. Hang in there, Di.

[BetC]

Praying for you - for your pain to lessen, for procedures to be effective, for healing in the family and for you to find a support system to help you through all this.

[Jster025]

So very sorry to hear that you are still in so much pain and that things have gotten worse. I pray that they will be able to alleviate some of your discomfort and that your family will be there for you. And I'm so proud you--losing 40 pounds is a huge achievement and I hope you keep at it. I know it will be hard since you have to be on so much bed rest. I wish they'd just go in there right away and take those pieces out. If they can cause permanent damage, why do they wait?