In his eyes.
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Journaling
Before I gave birth to you I had never had been so attached to another person as I was to you that evening. In a moment it was like my heart had split and a large part of it lay inside your little body. I have felt this many times since that day; from the time you ate this funky powder (I stayed up all night to watch you) to the time that you bit that kid in kindergarten for sitting on you. If I thought I was emotional before I became a mother, well the kinds of emotions you evoke in me have taught me whole new lessons on self control.
Sometimes it is like I can feel your every experience inside of me. I feel your pain, joy, excitement and anger almost as much as I feel my own. In many ways I think it is because you are more like me than your dad. You may have his face but everyday I see more of myself in you. You have my sensitive side, my silliness and my dry sense of humor. You even hate to clean. When we took off your training wheels this summer I watched you worry so much about falling. I could feel your unsaid thoughts, “Mom I am not sure I can do it” and I knew just how you felt.
I have finally realized after kindergarten that I needed to check some of this or I was never going to survive your big events getting married and graduation at the rate I am going. I am remember 3 years ago sitting in our living room angrily questioning my five year old about "What possessed you to bite a kid on the bus?" I knew I was irrationally confused and angry about an impulsive decision that really had nothing to do with me. It was then I realized that, Jared, while you are very much like me you are not me. You are not a “rule-follower” or reserved or serious like I was and for many reasons those differences in you are what I love the most.
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